“How was your day at school today?”
“Mine was good Aysa. How was your day at school?”
“I had a great day. I made my ASB posters. What was the favorite part of your day Riah?”
“PE because we are doing track and field.”
I stood in the kitchen, dishing up dinner plates, listening to this sweet conversation between two of my kids. As I listened and continued serving dinner, I smiled and realized I need to cherish these simple moments. Lately, life has been flying by, just happening. The days have been blending into one another, the to do list getting longer and longer, never seeming to get shorter, the kids keep getting older and I just keep feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Making dinner each night has begun to seem like a daunting task; one filled with whining kids, a messy kitchen, the same meal plans and a sink full of dishes.
Tonight though, as I made dinner and served the kids, God reminded me that it’s in the daunting daily tasks that memories are made. He reminded me I need to not allow the days to blend into one another, I need to slow down, savor and be intentional. He reminded me that I am blessed. While I feel tired, exhausted and overwhelmed by the daily tasks of single parenting three kids, I have opportunities only some dream of having. I get to cook meals for my three kids, I get listen to them take an interest in one another, I get to sit down at the table, eating with them and hear how their days were. I have more than some people have ever had and I need to be thankful not begrudging. I need to have gratitude not bitterness. I need to be joyful not unhappy. It’s okay to feel tired and exhausted, but I need to be thankful for the tiredness and even the exhaustion because it means I have a family to care for, a family to build memories with, a family to laugh with and more importantly a family to love. I need to remember that one day all too soon, my family will be grown, my house will be quiet and my table will be empty. One day I will long to be tired, cooking dinner, dishing up my kids’ plates and listening to them discuss their days.
Tonight - their conversation was music to my ears and medicine to my soul.
I'm a single mom of four radiant kids who believes in relationship with Jesus over religion. I'm trying not to battle with fear anymore - instead I am choosing to follow what God has called me to do. With that you'll find me here, trying to be brave, with the goal of being authentic and honest about God, single parenting and the beauty in the mess of my joyful chaos. It's sure to be a journey... and I am blessed to share it with you!